Sunday, March 11, 2012

Little Rain Boots

Lately I've been daydreaming about having little boys
Which is strange because I've never really wanted sons

But now I find myself romanticizing grubby hands and mud-stained clothes
Little bicycles, made for little legs and little rain boots with a dinosaur motif

I think two would be nice, so they could wrestle
And be rowdy and loud and make me long for peace and quiet

I would make them meals consisting of sandwiches and fruit and maybe cookies (because they're picky eaters)
And give them juice or milk to spill or dribble down the front of their chins and shirts

Then I could make them take a bath and give them submarines to play with in the water
I'd towel dry their hair and inhale the scent of kids' shampoo and savor, thinking

Imagining that one day they'll be men, larger and more muscular than myself
With responsibilities and strengths and power and hopefully with gentleness

It's such a nice daydream
And I really have no idea why I'm day-dreaming it

I don't know if it will ever happen
or if I would even truly enjoy it if it did

For now it makes my heart feel soft and honest
And I think that's a good place to be

1 comment:

Laura said...

That is one of the sweetest, neatest things you have ever written, and that says a lot since your writing is truly amazing!

You will be such a loving and wonderful mother, just right for your little boys, and hopefully a girl too. :) I pray and dream with you!

God has given you a gift for writing and for nurturing others, and how grand that is!